Since my last blog post I have been very distressed. Thank you all so much for your encouraging e-mails and messages! They really brought me comfort amidst trials here. I do not have any definite plans as of yet. However, I thought I would write a quick update because of the hopefulness I feel.
The past couple days have been hard for me. Being alone in a foreign country without any agenda or plans for serving has been and continues to be very challenging for me. I am learning to trust in God that his will will be done. It is very challenging waiting on the Lord. A lot harder than I ever expected it to be. The patience to ultimately be surrendered and to wait for the Lord completely is something that I lack and has been a very painful experience for me these past couple days.
I have been convicted about trying to run ahead of God and feel as if God wants me to rest in Him and trust that he will reveal His plan for me. However, it has been very hard and as some of you know – I am not very good at waiting. But, I do feel like that is what God wants for me now.
Yesterday, I meet with Campus Crusade for Christ and left feeling less peace than when I entered. That was not what I was expecting. I also met with someone at the YWAM office, this also produced distress for me, mostly because the person did not speak great English and I think a lot of my situation was lost in translation. Today, I attended a retreat for college students that was run by an Indian evangelism ministry and again felt very restless. Then, at last, came the moment of peace. After this retreat, I met with a woman who is in charge of a medical ministry here. I got the contact information from YWAM, as they are a ministry affiliated with YWAM. Shout out to Korey Leafblad for the heads up! Anyway, The meeting today did bring me peace. I will start serving with them on Monday. I am unsure if this is where God wants me or will ultimately be where I end up serving for any amount of time here. However, for now, I feel good about it. Praise the Lord. If nothing else, I thank God that he has provided me peace and comfort for today and the weekend as I can just rest in him.
Prayer Requests:
- Continued Discernment for where and what God wants from me here in Bangalore
- Strength and peace while dealing with lonliness here being the only American and traveling alone.
- Pray that I will feel a connection with this ministry here and all will work out.
- Continued dependence on the Lord
- Joy and enjoyment of my time here without being weighed down by my circumstances.
Rachel, you are a beautiful strong woman with an amazing Faith in our Lord! Don't give up! You will get through this!
ReplyDeleteI know that you feel alone and things have been a struggle for you, but I'm proud of you and your patience. I am so honored to know that the beautiful, strong woman that Amanda knows is my cousin. I love you and hope that in your servitude you find peace and love.
ReplyDeleteMichelle